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Here's a subject that's been on the back of my mind. It's the Terracotta army, made by some Chinese Emperor long ago. Basically, he fucking had his people build 8000 (eight-fucking-thousand) life-sized clay statues of soldiers and shit, just to guard his fucking tomb.

It's been in the Houston Museums recently, and on NPR. The subject of discussion is usually: oooh aaah, life-sized statues. very detailed. all unique. 8000 of them. estimated work force, estimated cost, estimated time to produce, etc. mostly just oohs and aahs.

Why doesn't anyone see it my way? All I see... is a narcistic king... who fucking wasted his country's resources... to fucking build a fucking CLAY ARMY... and just to fucking guard his stupid tomb, after his ass died. what... the... fuck!

We all know how China turned out. It got owned by everyone, from Whitee, to cousin Jappee, to civil wars and communism shit. China, in the end, got fucked. And it was most likely the management that was responsible. So when I see these sappy fucking stories about terrafuckingcotta soldiers... it's just... SHAMEFUL.

This shit is in a museum for oohs and aahs, but the true lesson in my opinion is the boooos and harhars. The story should be: look at this fucker king, who controlled the biggest fucking country in the world at the time, but was such a douche bag that he fucking built 8000 fucking clay soldiers, instead of building some fucking REAL soldiers, and actually taking care of business. Look at how fucked up China has always been... makes you wonder if their problems were just due to shitty management... now, look at all these terracotta mother fuckers, and ask yourself: what kind of a narcistic micro-managing stuck-up stupid mother fucking king could fucking do this? And how does this example reflect on Chinese culture?

Basically, I have a feeling that Chinese Business Culture has always been ghetto aloof micro-managing bullshit. 8000 clay figurines... it tells me the king was a selfish narcicist and a fucking pussy, the people were just dickless pushover yes-men jellyfish pussies, and the style of leadership was sloppy and corrupt.

Therefore the terracotta exhibit, and any other glorified Chinese Culture bullshit... in my mind... are all just bullshit. In the end, we all know China got fucked. Therefore anyone who was in charge prior to the fucking, in my opinion, is partially responsible. So before you go praising their faggotty asses, and quoting their haikus, think about it.

saw this documentary called porn 2.0

(it's on HULU, show called Vanguard)


i don't think it fully covered everything, but i thought it was interesting.

like... not to sound like a prude, but... isn't the porn business kind of unethical in the first place? The documentary pretty much sides with the porn industry and sympathizes with their problems. Problems such as competition by amateur porn producers, and piracy. And the documentary is pretty much about evolutionizing porn, as in live shows, with QA sessions afterwards. And some device you can stick your dick into, while the DVD is playing, so it's like you're fucking the girl. lolol. And 24/7 tweets from porn stars.

Let me just throw this argument out there... see where it goes... I claim that Porn is inherently an unethical business, and therefore it deserves no sympathy against bad business and/or piracy.

Like, if you put business on a spectrum, Porn would be right next door to drug dealing and prostitution. In this case, it's legal, but in the gray zone. Can you imagine the extreme scenario, where the porn industry fails, and the government bails them out? Lol. It wouldn't make any sense. Even if the government had infinite money, they still wouldn't bail out something like the porn industry. I guess that's my point. That's my lemon test. Basically, the porn industry is niching off an inherently controversial domain, and thus if shit hits the fan, they're on their own. sorry.

Here's an analogy. It's unfair, yet not extremely unfair. I figure the porn industry complaining about piracy, lack of sales, competition... is like a drug dealer complaining about less customers, and more competing dealers, or customers who rob them, etc. It just wouldn't make sense for them to complain, since their occupation is inherently in the domain of "you're on your own."

So that' my 2 cents. There was some blonde porn star in the documentary, complaining that people are putting bootleg things online about her. I honestly thought she was a bit stuck up in the documentary, not to mention... she fucks for a living. so it's like... shut the fuck up bitch!?

Am I being unfair? yes. but I figure, I'm just sort of throwing extremes at them, see if they can defend themselves. If they got good points, that can defend against the extremes I just threw at them, they maaybe. Otherwise, screw them, and they should just be happy that they once made money off this game.



like the only inspiration i got from the documentary was:
1. to write this
2. to direct my own porn. idk about other people, but I'm going for Kubrik shit. As in the Best Porn Movie in history, nothing can compare. Censored and Banned everywhere, yet secretly watched by everyone, everyday. On peoples' minds everytime they have sex. Lol. I'd go for that. It will probably be a mini-series. Like that mini-series that was in boogie nights.

I'm a creative person. I come up with ideas. Pretty sure the porn industry can't keep up with me. lol.

alex's views on technology/software

i raise this topic since i just tried to update AVG to version 10, and it told me to uninstall norton internet security, which i didn't even know I had. and Norton was extremely gay and wouldn't uninstall, and just hung there forever compiling some stupid report on why it couldn't install.

so the topic is technology. my core-view, which i don't think is unreasonable, is MINIMALISM. meaning that programs should not be hogging more memory and cpu that what is needed. programs should not be accessing the net unless the user knows about it, and is absolutely needed, programs. basically, i'm anti-bloatware. as in, everything should be the dual opposite of bloatware.

a mp3 player for instance, does not need to be flashy, or update itself, or access the net. it just has to do it's fucking job. when it's time to uninstall it, it just needs to fucking die too.

i'd like to think that's i'm not just complaining on some bloatwares, but on this new wave i see which is pro-bloaty software and pro-bloaty programming. it's going to be a dangerous world if programmers' core beliefs are: pro-bloatware, pro-paternalism, etc.

imagine ur almost out of battery, and you just need to grab a file off ur harddisk. but when you boot up, bam, flooded with needless graphics, startups, automatic updates, etc. fuck that. or that you can't even fucking open the file, because the program is bloated up the ass and takes forever to start up.

here's another newsflash: the year is still 2009. we don't fucking live on the starship enterprise. it's not practical to have fucking fancy GUIs just to fucking switch tabs and shit. so fucking deal with it. maybe one day when our cpu are uber powerful, and power is free, can you then finally spare a few stacks of memory, and clock times for a stupid flowee gui. but until then, fuck that shit!

especially... if you're running a fucking portable phone still clocking on fucking MHZ range.

i mean... it's gotten so bad nowadays, that some Operating systems don't even have a file explorer. it's become that paternalistic. omfg. hello??

so yea... things need to fucking scale back. and the Minimalistic theme should be the core of every programmer's style.

not sure if this fits... but i'm glad AOL is fucking dead. Real player is very unpopular now. However, other once-normal programs are now becoming uber gay. like Outlook, Adobe Acrobat, anti-viruses, Operating Systems. OMFG. Even graphics card drivers and shit. It's really pissing me off.

as more a mental excercise, rather than something i need off my chest... i'd like to write about my opinion of that dude who shot all those people in Fort Hood. Hassan.


context:

he's all over NPR news, and the commentary has shifted to things like: how this may affect other muslum american troops, how this violent act ties to islam, how stress from war or his job may have caused this, etc.

Also note that during Obama's speech, his only mention of the shooter was that he followed "twisted logic"...



my 2 cents:

this is just exactly what happens when you don't openly challenge religion. When something that's completely illogical is allowed to co-exist with real logic, you get consequences such as these.

I have a strong feeling that this man did this shit, expecting to die, and thinking that some afterlife awaited him. Or that there were some religious justifications.

Basically, his logic was indeed twisted. In my opinion, needlessly so. Since it doesn't take much to disprove and discredit Religion. But this is just not done. And I think the main reason why is because most people still view "the lie of religion" as having zero negative impact, and enforcing many poeitives like morals and charity and shit. I'm not completely disagreeing with the positives, but I definately worried about the negatives.

Because there ARE negatives to religion. Anytime you purposely allow mis-interpretation of logic, you are really just mind-fucking people. forget buzzwords like jesus, allah, etc. Let's just keep it simple: if you could convince someone 1+1=3. I figure the guy would be completely mind fucked. and by this run-away logic, he could easily do something completely disasterous like go postal on people... since his mental-self-check system is gone.

Yea... I guess I would put it that way: "Run-Away Logic"... and his "1+1=3" is Islam.

So the next thing to talk about is my opinion of Islam...

Well for starters, it's bullshit, just like all religions. But I'm not going to just dump it in the same category as Christianity...

I figure... Lets compare the 2 bullshits: Christianity is an offshoot of Judaism, all happening in the middle east. Judaism is like: eye for an eye, with no forgiveness themes. Christianity is all about forgiveness, which believe it or not makes it a very unique religion. Islam on the other hand can get a bit more violent. It's got it's own defensive mechanism saying: all non believers must die. anyone trying to recruit a muslim to another believer should be killed.

pretty crazy stuff. i figure: all religions have defensive mechanisms. but islam has a pretty crazy one.

so i figure... if you purposely blur the details, at the end of the day, Christianity has a fuzzy pink sweetness to it. and Islam has this fuzzy green bitterness to it. they're all bullshit, however one of them teaches on love and forgiveness... the other is about violence and shit.

so basically call me a hater of all religions. but I'm not so simplified to the point where i will treat christianity and islam the same. they have their differences. i think any soldier, especially someone who is a shrink... should be on top of logic. not building their logic on religious quicksand, but on actual textbook shit.

the warning signs for him existed. people just didn't do anything about it, since religion isn't exactly considered bad in the US. I heard he did a lot of muslum rants about be muslum or go to hell. lol. I mean... that's a tell tail sign that your shrink has built his principles on a 1+1=3 logic system, and not a neurological, psychological textbook system. that's unacceptable. problem is, people just haven't realy peiced together exactly how bad 1+1=3 can be. how it's not just some innocent sunday church shit, but the run-away logic shit.

bleh. the end. fuck this.

i guess the real truth is... life is a lie. men are mutated monkeys on a deviated path from nature. There is no naturalness for us anymore. It's not natural for us to live in a city, or even to hunt elk and eat fucking berries in the jungle. Everything is a lie.

Religion is basically a package. It seeks to create unity, and also explain everyhing there is to possibly explain, even if it means saying that the world was created by fairy dust. Yea, logically it's wrong, no shit. But logic is a bitch. The real shit is we die and stop existing. The real shit is that earth is fucked. The real shit is that humans are mutated monkeys, a cancer to nature.

Religion is a lie built on a lie, which is life. Big deal. Since Shit stacked on top of shit is still shit. lol. You can't exactly ban one turd and not all turds. If everyone was a lucid as me about Logic, well as far as the Army is concerned, no one would volunteer. lol. Lies soften one's rationality. Give you that diversity. Makes it so that someone out there will fight your wars, someone out there will serve you hamburgers and clean your toilets -rather than get their asses back to school and get a better life. lol. it's all just shit on top of shit. the end.

i have a strange feeling that my last post had some sort of karma application to the real world. like i talked about kill kill kill (reducing human population on the planet), and the next day some wacko shoots up an army base, and it happened in Texas. or i talk about denialism and the end of the world, and apparently there's a new book out, featured on NPR this morning (saturday). it's called "Denialism: How Irrational Thinking Hinders Scientific Progress, Harms the Planet, and Threatens Our Lives." The title itself is like... exactly what i've been talking about... and the radio segment about it, had a few moments that reflected my own logic. unfortunately they were only talking about vaccines and organic food... but the author sort of in a weak way asked the rhetorical question, which is sort of the whole theme... he asked... if you agree with me on some points but not others, think about why is that? since the logic is the same. /basically... because people are in denial.

anyways... i guess i have a lot of magic powers. it's like... if i think about something, it happens in some indirect-themed way. happens a lot.

I want to win the lottory!

I want a supermodel girlfriend who's also smart!

been a while since i stated any of my hardcore views.

um... so this post will be titled: Alex's interpretation of the world



basically, we're fucked. all of our attempted solutions to solve the world's problems, and yet we're in complete blind denial of the source-problem, which is human over population. it's like doing a math problem, except you already messed up. and rather than backtracking to the first mistake, you just keep building over it, trying to balance the equation so it can make sense - when infact, you're fucked. human overpopulation folks... it's responsible for all of life's problems. until you get out there and start killing folks or chopping off dicks, we're fucked.

that's the world as i see it. on a course for doom, because no one has the balls anymore to kill kill kill. religion and metrosexualism have softened people's perceptions. they think a person's life has a soul and has priceless value. or that the if everyone recycles their garbage, somehow everything will magically be ok. fucking retards.

it's not too late to change things, but realistically speaking, it's never going to happen. therefore like i say... we're fucked.

i'm not a psychopath, just a realist. i don't enjoy killing people, however i don't exactly see life and death as some supernatural thing either. people are animals. our bodies are similar to the animals that end up on our dinner plate. nothing supernatural. the body, brain, mind... all products of biology. far from priceless. worth only a few magnitudes more than the cow you raised and slaughtered without a second thought.

sure, humans are more intelligent. but that too is just biology. bigger brain. a product of evolution. a person's mind is unique, yet i honestly don't give a shit. i don't see the mind anymore, so much as the product of a functioning brain, which in the end, is just meat.

when the brain loses oxygen, the cells die, the mind dies, the body dies. no afterlife. just a state of nonexistence, like prebirth. big deal.

so needless to say, religion is crap. but let's talk a bit about it anways...

I'm Chinese. As in yellow skin, black hair, slanted eyes, peach hairs. when jesus was doing his thing in the Middle East, my people were doign their own thing in CHINA. jesus=jewish dude. my people=yellowskindudes. i guess my point is that christianity is middle eastern and jewish culture/mythology, and not even remotely applicable to anyone not from that region. it's been overblown out of proportion to try to fit with the rest of the world. it's therfore illogical to follow it for-real-real...

I guess I could go buddhist, but guess what... buddism came from INDIA. And guess what... Indians no longer even practice buddism.

so basically, religion is bullshit in terms of logic. if you ignore the bullshit logic, then all it is is a business. money. power.

my problem with religion is not because they have money and power... it's because it inherently goes against my core attitude on life... which is that you got to deal with your problems and not just deny them, not just live with them. but purge all that is wrong and bad, so you can become enlightened. religion poisons people's logic. keeps the world from getting on track and on with the killin'

when you shed away the bullshit, you'll see it my way. you'll see that you can't just recycle trash and ride a bike. you got to reduce human numbers on the planet, and fast. you got to see the things that hold you back, things like emotions, religious dogmas, etc - see them for what they really are, and then step up and take action.

yet even i know... it aint gonna happen. not unless nature does it for us.

so moving on...

since it's pretty clear to me, that people aren't going to just die, then I might as well talk about how to slow the bleeding...

I figure... you can start by shedding the bullshit. see life for the biology it is. stop wasting your time discussing abortion, human rights, etc. fuck that.

a fetus is a ___. the answer is: a fetus! it's a tiny living thing, that's existed for less than 1 year, and is on it's way to becoming a human fucking being. that's it folks. no soul. no character. nothing. you can't use religion or fear tactics or empathy to change that. the world is overcrowded and you're worrying about pro-life, pro-choice? give me a fucking break!

but i will say that... it's brain, in my opinion is about as functioning as someone asleep, dreaming, fevered, etc. it's desire to live, about as strong as your desire to stay asleep a few extra minutes in the morning. or a fish flapping away on the butcher's cutting block. you can't have everything in life. it's a fucked up situation, but the logic and biology is not complicated.

as far as human rights... it always sucks to be in a shitty hopeless situation, but that's life. survival of the fittest. death to the unfit. death isn't always quick. deal with it.

like people in jail. i say: fuck them. kill them. my philosophy on crime and punishment is: kill anyone who commits any outrageous crime. robbing someone, or stealing out of sheer greed, etc... these are what i call "outrageous"... i'd rather kill you, than have to pay for 10 years room and board, and have to risk putting you back on the streets. f u c k y o u. enough said.

you can't just give everyone 3 strikes. some people are just fucked. and you got to kill them the first time. that includes kids in some cases. (when i say that, i feel the need to re-emphasize that i'm not a psychopath - just a realist. lol.)

take the money you would otherwise spend on jails, etc - put that into healthcare. lol. best healthcare plan ever right there. dare to make me president? lol.

but seriously. you got to kill people to save the planet. don't forget that.

so while you're killing convicts and spending that money on grandma, and teaching all the African kids algebra... don't forget what I said: you're still fucked! If you aint killin' then we're all still fucked.

i guess that's enough to talk about for now... plenty more shit i could talk about. but im going to stop.

some good shit on hulu...

entire season1 of magnum pi. saw all of them. very good show. the time gap isn't that noticable.

movies: saw a classic clint eastwood movie: hang em high. kind of makes you think about all aspects of "justice."

good bad ugly. i would watch it, but i have the dvd, since it's like one of my favorite movies.

spartacus. directed by kubrick btw, even though his name isn't on the credits. wtf.
it's a good movie, but i really hated the theme music, which was incorporated heavily into the movie . it's like fully loaded orchestra, but the melody was pulled out of my ass. terrible. i really hate music like that. it's like an insult to the intelligence of listeners.


kubrick really did make some good movies. 2 movies that are immortal would be dr strangelove and full metal jacket.

my trip to mexico has opened my eyes a bit...

before i begin, i'd like to say that i really got fucked by Bush Intercontinental Airport. I got there 20 minutes before takeoff but security wouldn't let me in. I would have gotten there faster if it wasn't for bullshit construction in the airport parking garage. so we had to drive 6 hours there, 6 hours back. Thanks. And I had to still pay parking. Oh and they took 25 bux to give me a refund. Oh and they were rebuilding terminal c so I got fucking lost finding my car since they redecorated everything.

ok...

my trip has made me realize that... um... capitalism/democracy isn't that great. I figure, you're not fighting for the people, but for the rich people. Since I figure, no matter what kind of government, there will always be a low/mid class of people. So the only thing you're really fighting for is the extremely rich people, who enjoy status quo and want to keep it. You may also claim that you are also fighting for the middle class, and to keep our way of life. But my trip to mexico made me see how ordinary mexicans live. they have what we have, just not as freakin polished up and nice. but otherwise completely normal. being a humble person myself, I figure their standards are perfectly acceptable, and the only reason you wouldn't want to downgrade to it, is because people generally don't like getting demoted. bleh. it's hard to write this down and have it make sense...

point is... status quo protects the rich. revamp the system, nothing will really change except for the rich.

had a random dream, when i was half asleep, half awake. it's only like 1 minute long, and it's a bit perverted... here it goes....

i was in the gym... wait, first note that i have been going there more frequently, as in like almost every day. and basically i'm a bit consciencius of that, since i don't want to be seen as one of those regulars or squatters, etc. especially since i'm not exactly lookin like iron man. anyways... there was this lady there who's a bit stupid but hot enough you would hit that. and she was like: i see you here everyday. and i was like no, you see, i only come on mondays, but I have a low-intellect clone version of myself who needs something to do, so he comes on the other days. somehow she bought that... and basically started using my "clone" for sex... thinking that it's not really a person. lol.


other stuff...

have a stupid movie idea... it's very scifi-ee... i wrote a bit about it earlier... about time travel and nukes.

haven't worked out the details yet but basically the the protagonist is basically a ww2 flamethrower soldier dude, who was decorated for bravery in some controversial mission where everyone but him died, but at least the mission was successful. (i haven't decided the details yet.)

point is... it's ww2, and he's a firebat, and this is a timetraveler movie. he was supposed to die in a big fire with no remains left to identify... but a rogue group of sociopathic timetravelers abduct him moments before the fire, and essentially recruit him to be part of their group. he was essentially chosen based on his record. the group's leader thought he fit the profile very well... but infact, the protagonist's character is a bit more complicated than that. basically, what is on record isn't exactly what really happened...

so basically you have a "personal journey" kind of war movie with a sci-fi twist. the protagnost is a sympathetic every-man character, put into a pretty crazy situation, where his comrads are all various soldiers from through-out history (lol) and they're all a bit off. they're led by this colorful sociopathic dude (the villain, revealed later)... and what they do is... they jump to various points in human history, such as hiroshima and nagasaki -seconds before the nuke blows up... and they loot the shit out the town... since the subsequent nuclear blast will destroy everything anyways... and it's like, if that means they have to kill a few police and civilians in the process (futuristic guns vs ww2 guns), fuck it... since they all die anyways in the nuclear blast. right?

anyways, i haven't really worked out the meat of the story yet... but i'm thinking the last fight scene where he confronts the leader... there's going to be a reveal about how these timetravelers came to be, and why they're doing what they do, etc...and it will be a bit controversial and yet draw symbolic references to real shit in real life...

...for instance, perhaps the real criteria they chose for their time-travel recruits were people who have a certain type of personality, which allows them to not freak out and stuff when facing themselves from another time... oh yea... i forgot to mention... that the laser vs bullet fight scenes will be pretty violent but cool... and there's going to be some warcraft3 shit in there, where people tp out before they die, heal, and tp back. stuff like that... so the soldiers will ultimately be seeing duplicate versions of themselves from a later and/or earlier time... and thus... i guess the point i was originally trying to make at the start of this paragraph was that they need soldiers who are kind of fucked up yet functional... the kind that can look at their future and past self, yet still not spur any "feedback" which would instantly cause a chain reaction onto their future self... get it? too sci fi-ee? lol.

and btw, most people i ask say wierd shit when i ask them what they'll do if they accdentally made an identical copy of themselves. some say they would kill it. and i emphasize to them, that this would thus be the copy's first inclination too... and i emphasize that these are exact copies, and thus both have valid and equal reasons to want to be alive, etc. yet... most people don't have their mental shit together and i guess they just cant deal with a clone of themselves. lol... hence this movie, where some hardcore soldier dudes are chosen, because they have demonstrated that they simply don't give a fuck. not sure the exact details yet... but like i said: they're flawed but functional.

i think the haunting message i want to send to the audience when it's all done is... that shit is the way shit is... and there is no sugary version to it. the time travel physics essentially proves it. like... there's nothing supernatural about life and death... and the concept of macroscopic needs vs personal needs... etc. idk... lol.

i guess i generally mean that i want to create a very logical movie, which inadvertantly forces the audience to accept the cold hard physics of the way shit is in life. even if the movie is just fiction, the logic of action/reaction becomes understood by all audience members... and when they go back to their regular lives, they'll realize that a lot of their values are just sugar coated crap.. and life really is what it is.. even if there aren't timetravelers making it into a big drama. basically... everyone will like this movie, and understand the movie... but the movie will be the dual opposite of what people go home to... the movie sort of enlightens the audience, and logically makes church and metrosexualism seem a bit more obsolete. that is what i want in a movie... yea... essentially an entertaining lecture, which is easy to swallow, and ultimately makes so much sense that it makes you question some of the stuff you do in real life. anything from religion to eating unhealthy foods...

I watched an episode of Vanguard called the Oxycontin express...

btw, i sorta um, am attracted to Mariana Van Zeller. lol. Aside from being very beautiful and brainee and fascinating and cool, i sense something wierd about her. For some reason i suspect that she's screwd up inside, but has the personal drive to deal with it and not let it show. Idk... totally speculative based on a hunch. If I'm wrong, I'm really sorry.

anyways... the Oxycontin express... i think it's definately disturbing and shocking that some stupid legal technicality has created a full-blown exploit, where designer drugs are legally sold in mass to anyone.

One thing I don't understand is why people are smoking the pills or sniffing them or injecting them. It's like... um... they're pills... swallow them? lol. Can't you like... sort of rehab yourself off of the addiction or cut down the regular withdrawal symptoms by simply swallowing the pills, and tapering down how often you take them? Am I just noob or do I have a point?

Dare I also mention that you can probably crush the pill in alcohol to maximize the drug's affect? lol.

I guess it's time to establish a few things...
1. I don't do drugs, and I don't really know anyone who does drugs. Not even cigerettes. Closest drug acceptable is caffeine, and tylenol for headaches and fever. lol.
2. I honestly don't give a damn about the death rates from OD. In my opinion, a dead junky is a good thing. Come to think of it, I think it would be great if all users soemhow all died. My opinion is closer to that side. As far as putting up big headshots and remembering and feeling sorry for these people, I'm sort of leaning towards the other extreme... where it's like: "look at this fucked up world, where we have these normal looking kids, who are actually drug addicts, but oh well, they're dead now, so it's like Ha, that's what you fucking get for using drugs, you dumbasses. I hope more of you junkies die.. since you're nothing but society's runts... protected by humanistic laws... and now apparently there's a way to slowly get rid of you. that's a good thing."

I sometimes wish we had a in-house vigilante group that wasn't racist or psycho. someone who will take care of business when the law falls short. since this pain clinic exploit is just way way wrong. I want killers who don't kill out of personal shit, but do it for the good of the country. Like batman. lol.

i guess i'm also a screwd up person... =/

ok this is not a new idea. i've had it for a while. but it's never been big enough to actually type out...

it's about having a shitload of water barrels, built-in to things. like... for instance, into a building's architecture, sort of as a failsafe against fire. if there's a fire, the plastic melts and the water falls out and puts out the fire. or in the woods... manmade stagnant river, inside a bunch of water barrels. to sort of slow down or stop forest fires.

well, what i'm really thinking is about is a utilitarian building, that uses water tanks for insulation, or foundation, etc. water would be stagnant. there for the hell of it. why use plaster walls when you can have a denser h20 thing going? why use fire extinguishers if you can just pack your subceiling will shitloads of water barrels? if you're thinking "foundatation"... then build your house with that extra strength to be able to hold that kind of extra weight, duh.

heck. in my line of work, which is RF stuff, we use these metal shielded boxes, and go through all this trouble of maintiaining the opening surfaces to reduce leakage and reflections and shit. it's really expensive. sometimes i wonder why we don't just have a fishtank inside a bigger fishtank, and the difference filled with water. water stops RF pretty good. if that's not enough, just wrap the big fish tank with some tin foil. lol.

idk. for that shit, i think the money isn't really the metal as much as it's the rf absorbing foam, which is really expensive. whatever...

the point i'm just trying to make is to use water for things unconventional. since it's cheap and dense, etc.

around a week ago, there was this article online about how you could buy a years worth of food for like 800 bux per person. and i read it and it was very unimpressive. since that didn't even cover water. and it involved buying these humongous tin cans of dehydrated food. i say fuck that.

i don't like the idea of using humongous cans, or eating the same thing for a year. i don't like the idea of not including water.

so lets do some thinking...

water. lets say a person needs 1 gallon a day. last i checked, you can get a gallon for somewhere around 80 cents. and if you use those vending machiens, it will be like 25 cents. if you use a tap filter at home, it will be like practically free. You just need the jugs, and some place to put them. 350 gallons should be enough. that's like maybe 300 bux, just for water.

food. i figure you need like 2500 calories per day tops. probably less. but let's shoot for 2500. according to the 800 bux per year budget, that's like $2.20 a day on food. I'm pretty sure you can find a variety of non-perishable foods that give you 2500 calories for $2.20.

the most basic would be rice and beans...

Rice. Chinese grocery stores sell 20 lb bags for like 15-20 bux. so let's say 1:1 lb:dollars. 100g has 370 calories. 453g/lb. my math says 2500 calories of rice would be $1.50. By the way, I have a big can of oatmeal in my pantry, which cost like $1.50, and the total calories in there are also 2500, so that's about right.

Beans. according to online shit, you'll need about 40oz of dried beans to get 2500 calories. (dayamn!). I have no idea how much that costs or if that's even right. But seriously, I'm surprised, since i always thought beans were like very packed with energy, but it appears taht they are not.

I figure though... a bean/rice mix would still be under $2.20, but you would have to cook it.

Idk... if only i had a few more bux budget... then you could throw in shit like spam, peanut butter, pasta, etc.

so idk... if i had to conclude, i'd say... if you want to survive the apocolypse in some degree of comfort, you're going to need like 1500 bux per person per year. buy some bricks and some wooden boards, and you can stack that shit somewhere in your basement or garage. good luck.

if it's a zombie apocolypse, i recommend using 22LR ammo. get a rifle and a pistol, and maybe backups incase they break. silencers would be useful. daily bullet budget of like 100 rounds should be enough depending on how fortified you are. that would be 36500 bullets a year. 10 cents a bullet is $3650 per year. lol. good luck.

wouldn't that be grand? living by yourself in a fortified building. Setting weekly goals of head-popping 700 zombies every week? the population density of a city like San Francisco is like 4000 people/square mile. new york is 26000/sqmi. you're fucked if you're in NY. lol. but imo most people can expect a worst case zombie density similar to SF. 4000 zombies per square mile at any given time. give take. 36k bullets. you can claim 9 square miles in a year. depending on your accuracy ratio, and zombie migration.

i figure, you can scavenge for more food and ammo. build choke points and stuff for better security. ultimately, you'll need urban farming and shit. although honestly, in such a world, i would likely just commit suicide. either by blowing my brains out, or by giving up. since my life wouldn't be worth all that effort, given all the death around me.

haven't ranted in a while...

my philosophies on life, in random order:

1. the meaning of life is "cellular reproduction." the end.
2. there is no god and all the religions out there are crap.
3. death is quite simple: your brain cells die, you stop. it's like being back in the state of never being born.
4. human life has little value. the brain functions the same as any other mammal, but has more intelligence. so what.
5. even human emotions, feelings, etc are also just chemical/electrical signals and therefore should have less importance than cold hard logic. people just need to tough it out, especially if it's not an emergency.
6.

therefore the general way i live life is by the following things, in random order:

1. follow a wierd version of the engineers golden rule. the regular golden rule is: don't do stuff you wouldn't want done to you. the engineer's golden rule is: don't do stuff that if everyone did, would defeat the purpose of doing it. my version is more macroscopic than individualistic. it's like the engineer version with consideration for a group of people, and the role the individual plays in that group, and that groups role in the overall world.

2. i believe in something i call chaos theory. the name is probably a misnomer on my part. but it's basically that mistakes create more mistakes, and therefore it's important to shoot for 100% perfection.

3. i also think that all the problems in this world (big and small) are due to a single unaddressed problem: human overpopulation. every corrective plan we do that doesn't kill people, is not going to work, but only divert the problem somewhere else.

4. oh yea. i'm an engineer so laws of conservation are very obvious to me. apparently not to most people though. but that's a pretty important concept. you can't get something from nothing. for instance: health insurance. whatever america's hospital bills total to, you have to divide that by the population, and that's how much everyone will pay on average. i don't know how much that adds up to. but it wouldn't surprise me if it was over 5000 bux. therefore any sort of government healthcare wouldn't work, not until you kill people. see #3 above, lol.

5. related to chaos theory, i believe that bullshit corrodes your logic and also distorts your zen and peace of mind. therefore religion is not just something you should avoid, but something you should remove, since it actually corrodes people's heads. you can use tom sawyer and huckleberry finn as examples of how regularly lying to someone can turn that person very stupid and distort their logic.

6. i sort of believe in Daoism. Not really. Those philosophies are full of cliches and poems. fuck that. what i mean is that if you could summarize the key point of daoism into like 1 paragraph, then i believe in that. a interesting example would be one of those prep books, with answers in the back pages. while you're struggling to find the answer, the dao-way is to realize that there is only one correct answer, and it exists (in this case, in the answer key), and if you were to cheat and look up the answer your reaction will most likely be "oooh, of course!" -- meaning that the Dao principle is that i guess everything in this universe or whatever follows a unifying formula (the "dao"), which incidentally is going to be very concise, and logical, and make a lot of sense if only you knew what it was lol. and all of our persuits in life to find more knowledge is sort of like we're vectoring closer to the dao, and the closer we get to the dao, the more things make sense.

7. Therefore i don't have the typical soft spot for human life. I might go so far as to say: kill all criminals, let poor people starve, let really really sick people die. my lean is something closer to that extreme, rather than that habitat for humanity side.

8. despite any radical shit about killing people, i do not consider myself racist. infact i value diversity. so that's one of my philosophies. I don't want a world full of blond blue eyed hotties. It's important to have diversity. everything really, except for religion.

9. as far as vision, i want a world with less people. with emphasis on zero-footprint on the environment. people should be moral, scientific, and more boyscout than metrosexual.



actual utopian ideas i have, in random order:

1. growing vegetation on boats to offset carbon emissions and deforestation

2. very harsh punishments for lawbreakers, in an effort to purify the moral average of the population, and to also reduce unnecessary government expenses in wellfare, law/order, etc.

3. no religion. everyone so intelligent, they just "get it"

4. population control via a simple rule: cannot have babies until you are past the age of __. i'm thinking 30, but whatever. the idea is to reduce the number of tiers on the family tree per century. i think it's the tiers that really blow up the population, not the number of kids you have.

5. capitalism with ethical direction. the ethics will be policed by the government, which will have the authority to dish down some serious punishments to violators.

6. kicking out illegal immigrants. even kids under a certain age belonging to illegal immigrants, despite being born here. if no one will take them, we have a right to just shoot them. fuck them. oh yea, same for people we catch coming in illegally. i'm not saying we have to shoot them, but i'm saying it should be allowed.

7.

most of the drama at work is posted on LJ under private entry. this entry is of lighter importance, and thus is public.

some dude at work was riding in the back seat of a car (eclipse) going 120 mph on a saturday morning, left lane of a 3 lane highway. no other cars on the road. 9am.

A truck (F150) that was parked on the right shoulder pulls from the right shoulder into the left most lane, at practically a 60 degree angle.

the eclipse hits brakes and impact occurs at 90mph. the dude at work, sitting in the back, hits his head on the front seat, and loses a lot of blood. needs to be helo'd to the hospital. etc.

the police give thet truck driver a ticket for like... unsafely changing lanes? something like that. the eclipse doesn't get any tickets

WHO IS AT FAULT?

this made me think for a while......

btw, everyone has insurance. the dude from work is the only person who got fucked up real bad. everyone else is just bruised.

my thoughts were very conflicting, but ultimately i figured they were both at fault, with more fault going to the eclipse driver. even though the pickup truck committed the shitty lane change. not sure the law will agree with me. but i still think the eclipse is guilty.

at first i had a lot of disgust for the pickup driver, who i can already picture in my head, as one of the countless stupid mexican pickup drivers who can't drive worth shit, and slow down traffic, or cause people to maneuver to avoid them. hate those people. and this guy going from right shoulder to left lane is just fucking stupid, and he deserved it. fuck him.

YET...

yet, i know i'm being racist and biased. and i also know that the dude's going 120 mph were pretty much asking for collision. it doesn't even matter how, with who, under what circumstances, etc. if you go 120 you're risking this. and it happened. doesn't even matter who's technically at fault. they went fucking 120. they're at fault. if it wasn't that pickup driver, it could have been someone else. perhaps someone completely innocent, minding their business, dead, just like that, just because some stupid kids were going 120.

therefore, i decided that the person at fault is the person going outrageously over the speed limit, and not the moron doing a stupid thing of changing lanes.

as far as liability. idk. the pickup driver should be worried, since the law will fuck him. however in terms of human sympathy, i'd say it's the eclipse at fault. and the eclipse driver stands to also lose a shitload of money. if i were that dude in the backseat, i'd sue the driver of the eclipse. think about it this way: the injuries were caused by _____. obviously the eclipse's speed. not the truck's speed. not any UFO shit. simply put: the speed. which the driver is responsible for.

so yea... despite my hate for dumbfucks in pickups who can't drive for shit. i still have to consider the eclipse more guilty... even with a coworker involved, and his injuries severe. fuck them. their more liable imo and they need to be responsible for that.

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while i'm writing stupid rants, i had this idea for a book. it's better for a book, not a movie. and it might have some x-rated shit in there, even though this book will sell better than harry potter hopefully....

it's about... a girl... who....

bah, let's just cut to it: the unique concept in this book is what i would call "brain sync" or "mojo sync" ... it exploits a yet-to-be-proven but documented property of the human brain, where 2 people can sort of come up with an idea at the same time, or feel each other's pain, even if they're continents apart. etc.

so the book is about a girl's first person sort of journey as the apprentice to a godly man, who is getting old. bleh. hard to write this in a few sentences. and i'm afraid that if i drag it out, the point will get lost...

oh well...

basically, there's this dude who's like... freakin awesome... like he's blessed with everything. he "gets it" when it comes to everything. and he can do almost everything perfectly just because he's so awesome... he has changed the world... the world is almost utopian... and yet this guy is getting old and the fear is that no one can replace him.

so this girl is chosen... the story is her journey basically... she's basically intelligent and has had a unique background... and she gets chosen to be his apprentice... and one day become as awesome as he is...

so she goes up into the mountain where the dude lives alone... and basically... um... well... lets just get this out of the way: there's a lot of sex. and it's kind of like... dominant/submissive sex, where she's obviously the submissive. so you can say he's kind of like a control freak who uses her body for sex, and sort of conditions her body and mind to behave the way he wants. but wait, did i mention that he's awesome? so she's also like wowee. ok? so it's not like... rape or anything.

and btw the sex part is actually pretty important, i'm not just throwing it into the story for no reason...

anyways... when they're not having sweaty soulful sex, he trains her... but only on one thing: Archery. So just to make myself clear: this guy is like the master of the world, and she's been tasked to learn from him and also become master of the world one day, yet all he's teaching her is Archery.

btw, the girl is not some stupid damsel in distress. did i mention she's also smart, tough, logical, experienced, etc? an exceptional woman, but definately not like him...

so yea... the guy teaches her about the bow... the detailed physics of it, what all the parts do, the physical equations involved. he teaches her the physics of the arrow in air, and about windage, gravity, and even the rotation of the earth. btw, did i mention she's smart, as in, she already knows phyiscs and shit, so what he tells here is not like completely new...

so basically, he teaches her all the background physics involved, and also has her practice the physical act of shooting it. and he gives her like impossible targets... as in... impossible... as in like... shoot a swinging apple that's 300 yards away... etc.

btw, even though these shots are impossible, he is so awesome he can do it without even analyzing the various rocket science involved in the aim. he has MOJO (important). he understands the physics, but doesn't even go through them in his head. he just sort of uses his mojo to sort of take aim the way he thinks is right, and bullseye.

so a lot of the story is about the training and sex and training and sex. the typical.. where the master can crack shot bullseyes, and the student still has to process the full rocket formula and steady her aim to hit the target....... but then eventually, after the sex becomes perfect, and the 2 really bond, the teacher tells her to stop analyzing the formulas and just follow mojo. in other words, he tells her to just stop doing the math and just feeeeeel it like he feels it... and basically, it works. as long as she can put herself in that mental zone, which i previously called a "mojo sync", where basically she's emulating the same mojo that the master has... then she can also crackshot bullsyes.

and that's basically the story. the sex, the bond, the intimacy, the total submission... and the master has basically given her his mojo. she can sort of put her mind into that zone, and then crackshot anything, just like he can...... and consequentially, she can put her mind into that same zone for other things besides archery, and also "get it"... thus, she is now practically the new leader of the world, because her brain has found that "sweet spot" where, once you're in the sweet spot, everything makes sense. not just archery.

so that's essentailly the story... a fucked up world with this godlike dude... a girl relinquishing herself to this guy, for the sake of the world, undergoing this journey of self discovery, passion, love, etc... and coming out as practically a god herself. and she becomes the leader of the world... the end. wait for part 2. lol.

part 2... if there is one... will be her actual rule as queen... and the usual hero/villain soap opera affair, and her liesurely activities, where she walks around her kingdom wielding a bow. taking quet retreats to meditate (find the master's mojo). i think it would be fair to have much of the 2nd story be about her doubts of her mojo. how time has corroded her memory of him, and her memory of the mojo... but in the end, she figures it all out and finds herself again, and the boy she has a crush on turns out to be the master's son, and she has his baby. etc. zzz. stupid.

female readers will dig this book for it's intimacy and sex. male readers will dig this book for the sex.

i thought of a wierd story plot. it's like sci-fi with action and x-rated shit. most of the substance will be in slow reveals, but for now, ima just spoil it:

it's about time traveling. specifically, time travelling to hiroshima and nagasaki moments before the nukes go off. since ground zero is essentially the perfect place to loot shit, fuck with shit, and dump shit. especially since the time period is 1940s Japan, there's no risk of anyone finding out.

basically, i'm not sure what the plot will be yet. but the idea is basically illustrated above. before a place gets vaporized by a nuke, a time traveller could always loot the valuables, do experiments on the people, murder people, abduct people, dump garbage from the future, etc. dark, but logical. fuck ethics. what difference does it make to a gook if he gets shot or nuked... or both lol. and since it's time travel, the whole saturated list of crimes can be accomplished by only few people in a few minutes, as long as they repeatedly bouncing back and forth in time to different locations.

it's like... that cliche question about... wondering what the Japanese guy did, what he saw, what was on his mind, etc -moments before the bomb vaporized his ass...... well based on my plot... it's definately not what you think lol... he didn't just walk outside and say "fucking birds shit on my car again", look up, see the bomb dropping and say "oh shi" --BOOM! (lol).... according to my sci-fi plot, 10-20 minutes before the boom, his sense of reality would have been totally shaken up. since time travellers would be popping in and out of nowhere, taking shit, depositing shit, etc.

if you worked at a bank, zap, 5 dudes appear, quickly shoot everyone without hesitation, zap away your diamonds and gold bars and shit, then poof, they dissappear while you're still bleeding to death on the ground, going WTF. lol. and if you don't die of blood loss, the nuke will finish you off. that's for sure.

the time traveler dudes will be differnt places at the same time, doing multiple things like robbery, kidnapping, bio-weapon testing, rape, dumping garbage from the future in the middle of the street, etc.

hot women walking along the street will just... zap-zap... get abducted just like that. and get zapped back a few minutes later abused, raped, and discarded, seconds before the nuke goes off. how dark.

some dude sitting in a park will witness a mountan of garbage suddenly appear in the park. before he can go WTF, boom! some dude mopping the floor in a basketball court will witness a warehouse full of toxic waste barrels suddenly appear in his gym. before he can go WTF, booom!

a couple of minutes before the nuke goes off, people will already be on the ground having siezures and foaming at the mouth... due to biological weapons testing... while some guy in a silver hasmat suit watches and takes notes.

not many people are going to just instantly die from the nuke. practically everyone in the whole fucking city is going to get owned in some way before the nukes goes off on their asses. it's like... the worst human rights abuse ever, yet invisible, dismissable. how terribly dark and ironic.

so anyways... as far as story delivery. idk. i could make it some x-rated obsene porn movie, or i could make it some back to the future trilogy bullshit. idk yet. i originally was thinking that the timetravellers were a group of commandos, sent on a mission to swap irradiated gold bars with the yet-to-be irradiated gold bars in the bank. (somehow something happened in the future which caused some gold to become radioactive). then something goes wrong, and the commandos have to go around the city like king kong, blowing shit up with their futuristic weapons, while the japanese army and police can do nothing to stop them. doesn't matter how bloody or unrealistic, since everyone gets nuked and the evidence gets erased. i was thinking also that the antagonist of the story gets revealed and in the very end, he gets zapped to ground zero to be nuked with the rest of the city. serves him right.



the other way to go is to make the japanese shit all just a opening teaser, and the actual story about modern folks going about their usual business and wondering why shit is dissappearing, and garbage is appearing out of nowhere, why women are being abducted, etc. the mystery eventually takes you into the scifi realm, where you realize it's all being done by time travellers, and even if you could stop them, you can't, since your city is about to get nuked.

call me a fascist but i think i got it...

the relationship of government and people...

i think it should go like this... there is a "social contract" that citizens adopt to be part of a country. and one of the main contractual agreements is to not commit any serious crimes. thus, in my opinion anyone who commits a serious crime should be be ejected from that country. aka: killed.

so basically i'm saying that armed robbery, grand theft, etc... these things would get you executed by death penalty... since these crimes are pretty serious, and can only be done by a really criminal-minded person. i realize that their crime didn't physically hurt anyone, but they were commited on purpose in a very negative spirit, and therefore the society/government should have a say in whether they even want this person around. and I say no.

because criminals are criminals. fuck reformation. not cost benificial. too many people in the world already. reformation will come with prevention. would-be criminals would be like afraid to get the same sentence and stop their life of crime. and if they can't, well.. then fuck them. makes sense to me.

my views are very scary, i know. and a bit warped, since a bank robber would get killed, and maybe a murderer wouldn't. it makes sense to me, even if it's a bit ironic. there's a lot of gray area when it comes to murder. since murder can be done on accident, or in self defense. however armed robbery, kidnapping, grand theft, etc... these things are conscious decisions made by the offender. and these decisions are pretty hardcore. doesn't matter if you steal a car or go postal, since the offense came from a heavy-criminalized mind, and totally goes against the social contract, which means you abandoned society, and so society can abandon you.

when it comes to things like murder, smaller thefts, rape, etc. these things would need more investigation to see how severely damaged the offender is in terms of his character. if he's a rapist by nature, or repeating-thief by nature, or murderer by nature, then most definately... kill him. otherwise, the penalty will be jailtime or fines or community service and shit. yes yes, more irony. this will make things worse: i think the jail time should also be a bit changed. where someone who steals 30 bux to buy drugs gets like 10 years, and someone who accidentally shoots someone gets like 5 years. since the person who steals 30 bux is making a consciencious decision to put himself first, above his victim, above society, maybe only for 30 bux, but 30 is just a number, probably just whatever was there in the victim's posession, easily could have been more or less. the mentality of a person who steals 30 bux, or a person who steals 1000 is practically the same. so criminal actions like these, should be dealt with seriously. 10 years in jail minimum. see ya in 10 years, and don't do it again. and let that be a lesson to everyone, not to steal shit.

(btw, "rape" is hard to immediately judge on. so investigations need to be done. the accuser vs the accused.)

when it comes to drugs, i will take a conservative approach. i'd rather not kill small fish unless i have all the facts. like addicts won't get killed automatically. i would have to assess their reasons for getting into drugs and prospect their liklihood of recovery. it comes down to their inate character vs their current affected personality by the drugs. etc. but when it comes to dealers... then i will totally fuck them up. especially people who deal abusive drugs like crack, or deal to children.

and although i don't sympathize with marijuana use, i will give that drug a break. since i don't want to overstep on the killings. so i will allow that gray zone to exist. as far as marijuana traffickers and shit, i think those guys would pretty much have no excuse, and i would have to kill them.

buying and selling stolen property... i would go after the sellers, not the buyers. buyers get a pass... for better or worse. sellers get heavy jail sentence.

organized crime, if it can even continue to exist... would definately be dealth with seriously. white collar corruption would most definately get huge sentences. like death or maybe i can devise something worse than death, like torture before death, just to hammer home the fact that white collar corruption is not tolerated. like ernron, madoff, even martha stewart.. they'd be dead. well, maybe not martha... lol. but her case would have had a much more critical eye, and if she was found guilty of something intentional vs technical, she would get like 5 years.

wouldn't it be nice if we could like... kill like all the really really bad dudes in jail who are already serving life, and are hardcore like hiv rapists and shit in jail... kill them, free up some bunks, and then really really crackdown on crime?

right now everything is just a big mess. crime occurs. police don't do anything. even if they did, the criminals get released and just repeat. you got to insert the word "kill" somewhere into the legal system. criminals must die.

it's hard for me to see a face to crime anymore. it's not the criminal who fucks with me, it's the system that inadequately deals with crime. catching someone who robbed me, isn't really good enough for me. how about you just kill 20 robbers in jail, doesn't even have to be the same guy that robbed me. kill 20, that's 20 less revolving door criminals, and 20 more vacancies to sort of buffer things.

america just lacks the balls to fucking do it. to get dirty and just fucking kill the worst of the worst. it really bothers me. it's not the people that should die anymore, it's the system that cannot address these issues. it's not just crime too. it's things like illegal immigration, healthcare, education, etc. gotta change the rules. have some drainage at the bottom to put a stop to the worst of the worst.

open plot idea. probably dumb.

basically a story that starts with the police digging up 2 bodies in the woods that have been there a few years, and there's a time capsule with the bodies. in the time capsule is an anonymous note and some evidence, which explains that these 2 guys were killed by the author when they were burglarizing his home, and the killings were justified, the author buried the bodies 6 feet under and didn't report this to the police to avoid the big legal fuss. his intention was to bury these guys for good, never to be found again, but to also leave the timecapsule there incase the bodies were found, so he could explain to the cops and victims' families what exactly went down...

Basically, the author's note is like: well i guess it turns out you found the bodies, and are reading this note... and his note starts explaining everything and providing as much evidence and information to explain his justified killing, all without revealing his identity to the police. He put the handguns and burglar tools in the timecapsule, and goes through exactly what happened...

The story is basically... burglary in the middle of the night. 2 black dudes. he caught them and shot them in his house. they had guns on them. he didn't want to report it to the police because he was afraid the victims' families would get revenge on him, or he would have to go through the legal system and shit. so he basically just buried the bodies in the woods and left this timecapsule for record keeping. He also took a bunch of photos and video documentation, and has that in his own possession incase one day they trace it to him, he can further defend his actions. He admits the only thing he's guilty of is not reporting a crime, but then it's a matter of "catch me if you can, and if you even want to."

His letter to the victims' families will go something like this: sorry you had to live without closure on what happened to your kid. but fuck it, that's life. your kid was a fucking criminal who fucked with the wrong house. you might think you deserve closure, but fuck it. your kid fucking broke into my house in the middle of the night, knowing i was likely home asleep, and he had a gun on him too. what can i say... he died committing a crime. and his crime in my opinion is a rather serious one, that could only be done by a person with a deep criminal lifestyle. so what can i say, i'm not sorry i killed him, and i'm not particulary empathetic towards you either, since you likely knew your kid was a hoodlum, and that his continuance of life meant the suffering of others. i put an end to it. i did it to protect myself, my family, and my property. fuck your son. no hard feeling to you. but you better not get emotional and fuck with me, since in my book you're partially responsible for your the way your kid turned out in life....

bleh, you get the point.

that's the start of the story... not sure where the rest of the story goes...

worst case scenario is i do a very dirty story about race. and the story becomes this cynical yet calm decaying story... where there's the funeral, the crying mom, the family members, who have all grown up yet also have very unproud lives... like... gangbanger, in-out of jail, no job, etc.

plus i can throw in shit about universal healthcare, which gives health insurance to crackbabies. you can have as many fucking crackbabies as you fucking want, since they're fucking insured. omfg. how cynical and racist is that. i'd get assassinated before i finish filming... lol.

the other direction is your typical cold case csi shit. but i honestly wouldn't want to author this kind of story, since i honestly empathize with the dude who shot the 2 black dudes, and i don't want to make a fucking story where the fbi are going after this dude who was only defending his fucking house. i mean, maybe i'm just not seeing the other side of things, but i side with the "catch me if you even fucking want to" pov.

plus this kind of story will be a lot of blueballing, and then they arrest the guy and send him to jail for some shit he barely did wrong. and any rant he says won't change the legal punishment. that shit is too gay for me. sorry.

Today I babysitted my Mom+Dad+Brother while they tried to switch over from Verizon to T-mobile.

Problem:
My brother in UT Austin says his signal is always really bad with his Verizon LG Chocolate, and all his friends are on T-mobile and have full bars all the time, and plus they can custimize their phones and shit, and just to call him uses their minutes.

Objectives:
Switch from Verizon to AT&T or T-mobile at minimal cost, maximum freebiness. Also make sure my brother's phone is pimp and has an unlimited data plan.

Chronology:
We went to a T-mobile "Authorized dealer" in China Town, next to that big ass supermarket. I thought the guy working there was a bit too shady and his selection of phones too limited, so I strongly urged my family to stay with Verizon, and just get a better phone for my brother, since it appears that the chocolate's design has shitty reception.

We ate some chinese icee shit and I googled shit on my phone. Figured out that T-mobile Authorized dealers vs T-mobile stores are two completely different things.

We went to a T-mobile store on Westheimer. We got a much better deal, and much more upfront information. And we got a 15% discount because my Dad employer is part of some program. The discount was applied on the spot btw. My brother paid 175 for a MyTouch, and my parents both got a free samsung flip phone, which has some decent features like WIFI, microSD, etc. The total cost at the end of the day was the same as Verizon's current bill.


Summary of Phone plans:
1. 3 lines, one with unlimited data, all with the 15% discount, come out to like $105/month which is what they paid with verizon, but all 3 lines with verizon had no data.
2. My brother paid about 175 for a white MyTouch. And he bought insurance. And a silicon gel case.
3. My parents got a decent phone for free.
4. We didn't pay any additional charges, such as activation fee etc.

Lessons learned:
1. Always go to a "T-mobile Store" - never go to a T-mobile "Authorized Dealer" --especially if it's a small Chinese place that niches off of stupid FOBs. Today's shit is proof that Chinese people exploit their own kind. What can I say, as long as Chinese people continue to be ignorant and racist and cowardly, there will continue to be these middlemen who charge more for the same service.
2. There's a 15% discount for phone service if you go to UT Austin, or work for certain employers. Google it. The t-mobile store will apply it to the bill. The authorized dealers probably won't.
3. Even though my brother's main reason for wanting to switch carriers was due to his shitty Phone, not the Carrier, he still had a very shitty impression of his old carrier (Verizon) because it appears that Verizon's phone are all very restrictive on what they can do and it costs a lot more.

The end.

oh yea. here's an interesting thought i had a few days ago.

i remember when i was in elementary school, my teachers told me in like 20 years America would be selling "services" to the rest of the world. back then we were all America-Fuck-Yea! and we figured the rest of the world would all be a bunch of dumbass 3rd world mofos, and that we would all be smart and shit.

then by middleschool, highschool, i saw the dark side of our Education system. I stayed in the Upper-level classes, but i knew that half of kids in the school took "regular" classes. pfft. and the only classes you meet them in are PE. and those retarded fuckers wouldn't even dress out. you get penalized 5 points on your REPORT CARD for not dressing out. omfg. and plus PE is only 4 credits instead of 5. so omfg. these stupid people (all mexicans) would not dress out and actually flunk PE. omfg. really upset me.

i think i know why it upset me. because like i was told in elementary school, our country was aiming for selling services to the rest of the world. yet my experiences in academia all showed that the majority of americans were stupid, and had this self-destructive attitude towards their own education.

and now i'm factoring in race and shit. and i'm wondering if all the illegal immigrants from Mexico play a part in the shitty public education system. They come to school for free lunch, and don't even dress up for GYM. (omfg). that is such a waste of taxpayer money.

so i'm going to be racist...

i'm going to say... what if we let these illegals come in, in anticipation that 20 years from now we'd all be tech saavy people selling our services overseas, and we needed mexicans to man the mcdonalds and shit. yet, in the process of allowing them into the country, we ended up hindering our education system and thus fell short of being the intellectual light of the world.

if you look at other countries, they have badass technology. their cellphones can do video calls, their regular isp bandwidth is crazy compared to ours, etc etc. it's really sad. all of our computer programs, even movies are being made in other countries. were' importing services for crying out loud. americans have all become obese uneducated hillbillies. omfg. how sad. not blaming the mexicans or anything but i'm definately saying that we fell short of our vision. big time. and i attribute it all to the same mental self-destructive attitude those mexican in PE had... where it's not cool to be smart. you can be proud to fail. etc.

ir wasn't just gym btw. i remember going to a lot of anti-drug, anti-smoking activities in elemtary school. i remember alot of things in middleschool too about not smoking. yet by middleschool i would still see some kids smoking, and some experimenting with drugs. i was like... wow, what are you doing??? since i'm pretty sure they probably went through the same anti-drug programs as i did. it just goes to show that there's this self destructive attitude in america. themed around this attitude of how it's uncool to follow the rules and actually learn from school.

if i had to blame things, i would blame 2 things: lack of government funding and emphasis on education, and lack of government enforcement of illegal immigration.

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omg. i forgot the whole point of writing this entry...

you see, i saw this episode of Vanguard about Japan and it's low birth rate crisis. and how they are considering immigrants to offset the lack of labor. and yet... basically... japanese people are so inclusive (cough*RACIST*cough) that they really really give their immigrants a hard time. to the point where even the successful immigrants want to get the fuck out of japan once they have enough yen bling.

and my reaction to this... was kind of like... wow, you racist mother fuckers!

but then like a few days ago... i pieced together my childhood and that american vision we had like 20 years ago about how America would be number 1 and sell services to other countries and shit, and then my memories of all those stupid mexican motherfuckers at GYM... and then it occured to me... that America is too nice, too fair to everyone, especially illegal immigrants... to the point where we let them in and let them destroy our own foundations like education in this case.

japan... their racism in this case PROTECTS them, believe it or not. The immigrants come in just to do their fucking job, and then they get the fuck out. they don't come in with their kids, and bring their entire tribe with them. they basically go in, leave. don't drag down the crime rates, education, etc. so bravo to japan. boo to america. lol.

controversial, i know. but that's kind of what occured to me a few days ago.

and yea... that gym shit is going to haunt me for the rest of my life.

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wow Live Journal just lost everything i wrote in the next section... omfg. i have to type it again... omfg.

it was about defending myself from being labelled a racist. yet explaining how i am slightly racist. even have sexual preferences towards certain races than others. likely due to scarred childhood shit, from gym lol. sounds so cliche... some fat kid scarred from gym class.

but anyways, i am generally unattracted to black women, and hispanic women who look gangsteree.

as far as how i treat people in general. i treat everyone fair. i turn on engineer mode, which forces me to be fair, and considerate of others, not to hold my own opinions as better than others.

that's how i'd describe it. engineer mode. when i turn it on, everyone is equal. race and gender. to the point where women (and men) wonder what planet i'm from, since i treat women the same as men. I don't see how that's a bad thing for them.

maye i'm just a weak minded person because i'm also racist against my own race of chinese people. lol.

but yea, i'd hate to be labelled as a hardcore racist. i think no one is jesus. and i definately try to be fair. the only thing i'm hardcore about is devaluing human life, but there is no racial or political hierchy when it comes to who goes who stays. there's no eugenics involved. it's simply a matter of short term solution to save the planet. you obviously kill people of bad character.